Okay I am not schizophrenic even though at times my kids may think I am crazy. The two voices in my head have the names of condemnation and conviction. Condemnation says : "I can't believe you did that. You can't do anything right." It will go on and on and before long I feel covered in guilt with no hope of digging my way out. Conviction which is the Holy Spirit's voice says maybe you should apologize for those words you said to your husband or is that something you should really be watching on TV. Conviction's goal is repentance and reconciliation. Condemnation's goal is guilt and misery. Romans 8:1,2 says "Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus because through Jesus Christ the law of the spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death." I am learning that when I hear those words of condemnation they are lies from the evil one. God's words draw me to reconciliation and a right relationship with Him. His words have grace where Satan's words have judgemental. Putting on my helmet of salvation, I am able to stand firm in my identity in Christ. I am not perfect but I am forgiven. I have been saved by grace through faith. So on those days when things are not going well I need to be in God's presence so that I can filter out what is his voice and what is not. My prayer is Ps 139:23,24: "Search me O God and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting."
Dear God of grace and truth, Forgive me for those times that I let the evil one convince me that I am not worthy. Forgive me also for the times I block out the truth in the midst of the condemnation. God may my hope be in you and you alone. Show me how to walk in the way everlasting. May I be holy as you are holy. Amen