When we see the word spending, we automatically think of shopping or something to do with money. Today I have been thinking of another type of spending- the spending of ourselves. In the last few weeks, I have been praying and thinking about how I would be spending my time next year. Both of my children will be in school full time so it would just be me at home during the day. An opportunity arose for me to teach 5th grade math and PE at a small country type school near where we live. It would be a few hours each morning and even though I have always taught high school, it would fit my skill set. It would also give me plenty of time at home to do things I like to do and keep on top of the household tasks. Then out of the blue, I was offered another opportunity to teach two sections of high school math at the international school. I would actually even have W. in one of the classes. My mind thought that would be fun but... But would I have time to keep up at home? But would I have any time to myself? But could I keep up with work and family? After discussing it with my DH, I said yes. I said yes because there is a need, I am qualified to meet that need, and I do love teaching high school math. It is not official I still have to go through the reference stage and be officially accepted but I have a peace about my decision. It will require some organization on my part and maybe giving up some of my me time but it is very doable with God's guidance and help.
Today I was reading in Isaiah 58. Verses 10-11 say "And if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry and satisfy the needs of the oppressed, then your light will rise in the darkness, and your night like the noonday. The Lord will guide you always; He will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be a well-watered garden, whose waters never fail." This is my prayer. That I can spend myself in this place. I may not be spending myself directly for those who are hungry and oppressed but I will be helping others who are by teaching their children. I will also have the opportunity at the International School to teach local children who may someday be the leaders of this nation and be able to make a difference in what goes on here. If I will follow, God will guide me and satisfy my needs in this sun-scorched place and strengthen my frame. So next year, when I get discouraged that I have gotten myself in too deep, remind me of these verses and that God is faithful.
Dear God, Too many times I save too much of myself for me. Help me to spend myself for you and your work which includes my family and friends. May I follow your guidance and realize that you will meet my needs and strengthen me when I am weak. It is only in you that I am strong. Thank you for all you do for me each and every day. Amen