Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Tears Tonight

I was hit by a bombshell tonight.   Even though I live in a land where bombshells are more real, I am talking about the emotional kind.  I found out that a good friend will be leaving earlier than expected and not necessarily like she planned.  As she told of her plans, my eyes filled with tears for me and for her.  For me, she has mentored me and believed in me here in this place.  I will miss her presence and support.  For her,  I desire a better ending.  I really want her to finish strong and circumstances look like they will prevent her from doing so.  So I cry and pray.  I pray that somehow in God's grace this will have good closure.

My tears are for a fellow teacher who is on her way home to be with her father who is in a coma.  I feel for her and pray for a miracle.  The news reminds me of my dad who would have turned 65 last week.  So some of the tears are for me as I remember my dad and how much I miss him.  

Then I think of how my tears should also be for the people of this land who so need a savior.  They are a people who need peace but never seem to find it.  They are a people blinded by the enemy and our prayer is that they will soon see the true light.

On top of it all, I was sobbing over a TV show I was watching with the kids.  My kids had the look like what's up with mom.  So I guess it is just one of those days.

In all the tears, I am comforted to know that God cares enough about our tears to keep them all in a bottle (Psalm 56:8).  He sees us in our grief.  Even Jesus took time to weep with Mary and Martha.

Dear God, Be with my friend.  Help her to end well here.  Be with my fellow teacher.  Give her a safe journey.  I pray for healing for her dad.  Thank you that you see my tears and in some ways you offer a shoulder to cry on.  Help me to process all that is going on in a way that is pleasing to you.  In your son's name, Amen


1 comment:

Chris and Julie Medley said...

Praying for you, dear friend. I will share your tears from afar.
Love, JM